Coffee & Cupcakes

As far as I knew it was a normal Friday evening, I had most of the day off pottering around with Kezzi before heading to work for our weekly Children's Club about 5pm. It was to be my last one before maternity leave began the following Wednesday so we made sure it was fun. The evening was spent making many jokes at the size of my ever growing belly, other leaders preparing to catch the baby as he "popped" out during a game of musical statues... It was all highly commical and a great last evening. It ended with 2 conversations which to this day make me giggle, the first was between me and two good friends, Ben and Jill, two friends who often following club offer me a lift home... However due to the possibility of my waters exploding over their car it was suggested, in much humour I hasten to add, that I look for a lift elsewhere. So I did I decided for once to leave Josh to walk home after youth group and I take the car, the second conversation comes now - Jill commented o...

In January 2013, Josh and I attended a Christian Conference, through work, and amazing things took place. My dad had arranged to be in England to look after Kezzia, meaning Josh and I could attend various meetings without needing to alternate childminding. During one meeting, the speaker spoke of the difficulties he and his wife had in trying to conceive and how he wanted to pray with couples facing the same thing. As soon as the service was finished I went up for prayer, I shared my story and they prayed God would indeed hear our cry for another child. Throughout the conference God spoke to us through people's prayers and through verses given to us, including that in Psalm 37 which says "Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart"... We sat in our room one evening and knew that God was renewing our hope, that indeed his timing was perfect and we need not have fear in trying for a playmate for Kezzia. God is faithful and God used that tim...

Much to our shock, as we planned on having a little break! We found we were expecting again in September. Although everyone was excited there was a definite hesitation to celebrate as the recent miscarriage left us full of fear!  However naivety struck as I convinced myself that I couldn't possibly miscarry twice in a row... Again about a week after finding out the news I was back in Hospital with similar complications as before...The scan again showed all was as it should be and the midwife encouraged us to think positively, however I, with no delay, informed her of our situation and that it was highly unlikely I would be able to think anything positive. We were booked in to come back in 10 days for another scan, and due to continuing complications, after what I thought was the longest 10 days ever we returned and awaited our scan... The scan was inconclusive! Without getting to technical, the baby had grown but not to the extent they were expecting, we were sent home and boo...

Recently we held a dedication for my son, for those of you not familiar with this, in Christian circles it is a short service in which you ask for God's blessing on your new child and as parents ask for His help in raising them! Let's face it as parents we can do with all the help we can get, so we planned our dedication for Levi shortly after Christmas! Due to this many friends and some family members were unable to come and so as promised here is the story of Levi. Kezzia had just turned one and so we decided or maybe I persuaded Josh that it was about time she had a playmate and so mentally we decided on baby number 2.  I should fill you in that and I'm sure most ladies will agree that when you decide for a child you do not comprehend that miscarriage/premature labour/difficult pregnancy or any other situation will befall you. Naively I think most of us plan and hope for that lovely pregnancy, where we look glowing and labour is indeed painful but straight forwa...